Its 02:38, the city below sprawls like a mosaic of muted lights and shadowed streets, its usual hum now a distant murmur. Jet lag wraps around me like a fog, distorting the boundaries between wakefulness and sleep. My eyes are heavy, struggling to focus on the intricate dance of neon signs and the occasional glint of headlights slicing through the darkness. The skyline, with its jagged silhouette of high-rises feels both alien and strangely intimate in this fragile moment of solitude. Despite the disorienting fatigue, there’s a quiet exhilaration in witnessing the city’s pre-dawn slumber, a brief, serene glimpse into a world still wrapped in the comfort of night. I am in Tokyo…
This is my first attempt at a blog, my English is poor. I’m gonna type Afrikaans occasionally, probably some Zulu and crack lame jokes, write some rap lines down all shit like that. I wanna show Tokyo & Japan through my eyes. Whiskey, sushi, beer, ramen, culture, shrines, blady anything man. Also, need to update this website over the course of my trip, if you know anyone that can help me, I will pay them in Kit Kats! Also gonna be dropping some banging tunes so for my first blog post, its no surprise on the song I choose! You will see it at the bottom
About a year ago my world changed quite drastically. The future I wanted was no longer a reality but rather a faint dream that had been swept away from the feet under me. As a man you gotta take ownership of your shit, I wasn’t. Someone out there wants your job, your car, your house and wants to fuck your girl! I was so preoccupied with watching everyone else succeed and grow, I was just cruising. I had no goals, and everytime the future came up, I couldn’t really give an answer. I lost focus on myself and it cost me. I watched the come up of someone else! It was like little boy shit, weak shit. I was pretty scared of how I was viewed, but you know you not suppose to give a fuck. I never really understood love I guess. I have been told I am jealous and immature, both pretty true. I guess I am on a path of trying to rationalize where I am going! I thought rock bottom was a year ago, but really it came a few months after that! It was Gods way of saying, improve, get better, this aint for you! I aint a big believer in all that, but shit I been praying a bit, for a few moments, asking for signs, that would help me! “You aint where you are, and thats your fault! Dont be a little boy and blame others, blame yourself!” I went through depression and anxiety, and had to become vulnerable. Words or feelings I had never associated with before in my life. I am an emotional cunny. My insecurities were massive, I couldn’t deal with them, communication sucked, I was just going about my day with no direction or what I wanted. Stages of really dark thoughts were clouding my mind, I couldn’t see a way out. A lot of people supported me, for them I am forever grateful and there is a lot of you, you know who you are.
I know this might sound like a fucking pity party, but these are my thoughts and my journey, and if you dont like it you dont have to read it. So fuck you! But I need a place, a reminder of what it was like and how far and where I have come from to get to this point in my life. This is my adventure.Its taken me months to slowly recover and get stronger. I ain’t back yet, but it’s coming. All in all, looking back on hindsight, and hindsight is one hell of a mutha fucker, the accountability ends with me, nobody else. Its my fault, it might take two people to fuck it all up, but it was all me!
This last year has proved to be the biggest wake up call in my life. I had to get back to hobbies and also new ones. I love to travel, I been very fortunate to see some incredible places however this year, it was more just going to see mates and spending time with them. Love my pals immensely. So glad they all doing well in there own regard. Before I came to Tokyo i went to a wedding in chicago. Probably the bougiest wedding i have ever been to but shit i was an incredible 10 days. I love those cunnies, bit of golf then 48 hours of drinking followed by 24 hours of brokenness. Its just good to sit and take some advice from people on life, people who have been through shit like you and me. It made me realize, I wont be the first or the last. I wasn,t able to go to steve and beths wedding. I know Steve hates me for it, but mad love to both of them!
Cunnies FC had its last game two weeks ago. I think we had played for 4 years across 2 different venues, with multiple different people. Played with some incredible ballers but even better human beings. Will never forget the scraps down there, the absolute banger goals, the celebrations and the post beers conversations. We all got a little older and its becoming tougher to get a team together. Looks like we might be playing golf in the near future! Its a hobby i picked up recently, played a lot, shot 83. LIV tour soon, and a european tour next year with the lads. Missing a few members below!
Lastly, two weeks before leaving myself and Scuuuuuuuuuuuum aka Creep went to visit Luce in Amsterdam. This was just a blur of nightclubs in Rotterdam, to chilling in the red light district with Mary Jane. That last night we went out to a Techno party in the Hague. I love Hip hop, probably my favorite music genre although recently country has grown on my. We will dive into that later. This party was a scene out of Ibiza. On the beach just moving around, squeaking takkie. The music didn’t stop, the sun went down, the sprinkles were being spread and the heart rate was through the roof. Pingers had kicked around 23:00. Here we are mid 30s in a rave losing our minds haha. Had to go back to Mary Jane before sleep. As we walked out, creep said “now you can leave to Tokyo with your heart full playa, what a night” Sunday was demons.
So after a year of unexpected circumstances and events, having traveled the world, met new people, some I won’t forget, some I will, this is where my new adventure begins! Tokyo!
I strolled the streets of Shinagawa this evening, got to know my surroundings, and went to have pasta for dinner haha. Sat at a table by myself for the first time ever in a foreign country. Google translated the menu, then tried to order 3 times eventually was successful. Spaghetti was Al Denti, lots or parmesan but had broccoli in it. No photo required. 6.8. Wore a white tee like an absolute rookie. Afterwards I hit a family mart, Green tea Kit Kat, the world’s best, if anyone wants any, drop me a line, and I will send it worldwide haha. Bringing back a boat load of that to the UK and to my fam in SA.
I wonder what today will have in store for me. I have been practicing my Japanese. Yoshi, been a great teacher, owe him a boat load of whiskey when I return. Hopefully he taught me all the right things otherwise I will poes him when I see him. Truth be told, the last time I traveled solo was when I was 23 to Miami, I made some lifelong friends and got memories I hopefully won’t forget. My facebook got hacked like 8 years ago and I lost all my pictures, I will never get that back. I don’t have an instagram anymore, maybe I will link this to a new handle, will see. I have never really captured my memories or taken any cool photos, so I thought why not now. I got three months to experience the Japanese way of living, learn the culture, the mannerisms, just to live and breathe the air where so many wanna go and I get to experience this! I got this opportunity, no time to waste, I got shit to take care of! Hopefully no drinks this week, maybe one or two, see how it goes. Keep you cunnies posted on the next few days, till then… mansinjapanmybru